First it was a friend of mine asking me about Duffy, a singer I barely knew and then Amber and her “Song of the day…Warwick Avenue – Duffy” post. Now I can’t stop listening, last week it was the Parlotones and the week before it was… well I can’t remember that far back.
So many times people ask me a question I find hard to answer for the main fact that it is so integrated into who I am.
How can I still smile and laugh with abandon after everything that has happened to me, how can I laugh after this last year of my life?
Normally I just look stumped and then make a joke of it, you know me. Deep down though I wrack my mind for the words to explain that it is mostly a subconscious matter. Most days I don’t have to choose to be happy it is just so, some days I do, some days I can catch myself in a slump and then I go stand in front of the mirror, look myself in the eye and force myself to laugh uncontrollably. There is something about seeing another smiling face, hearing laughter and feeling that energy.
Now when I get asked that question I will be able to turn round and tell them to listen to Duffy’s Distant Dreamer for it says what I can never find the words to say.
I am the Distant Dreamer, dreaming keeps me alive. It is one of the greatest qualities that a child has, they are forever dreaming. It is one of the reasons they laugh and smile so much, they have hope because they are still dreaming.
I will always have dreams, I will never let them die. When everything else may seem dark I have the brightest light within me. I have hope.
Distant Dreamer
Although you think I cope
My head is filled with hope
Of some place other than here
Although you think I smile
Inside and all the while
I’m wondering about my destiny
I’m thinking about
All the things
I’d like to do
In my life
I’m a dreamer
A distant dreamer
Dreaming far away from today
Even when you see me frown
My heart won’t let me down
Because I know there’s better things to come
And when life gets tough
And I feel I’ve had enough
I hold on to a distant star
I’m thinking about
All the things
I’d like to do
In my life
I’m a dreamer
A distant dreamer
Dreaming far away from today
I’m a dreamer
A distant dreamer
Dreaming far away from today
Yeah I’m a dreamer
Joy
•14 years ago
It really is nice to have that dream inside and always have that hope. It may never happen but like you said, if you keep it alive, it might.
angryafrican
•14 years ago
Nice one. People say I am an idealist. Of course I am. I believe in a better tomorrow. What’s not to smile about. Keep on dreaming. It won’t come true if you don’t dream it first.
glaize
•14 years ago
I’ve Duffy’s album at hand so I’m playing it while I read this. I agree with Joy and angryafrican – without a dream, what are we really after anyway? Dreams are good. Realizing it is a choice. 🙂 Hugs!
SanityFound
•14 years ago
Joy as long as they live we live, so very true. See each day I wake up and I dream, I dream of a better future for the world, I dream of helping people as I have been helped and I dream of meeting you and having that beer you mentioned.
AA I couldn’t agree more, and when the smiles are hard to come by i stand outside in the rain with my tongue out catching it! You keep on dreamin’ as well, its the dreams of the future that bring it closer.
Glaize Realising it is indeed a choice but then so is dreaming. Sometimes life can get us so downtrodden that we forget to dream, we forget to hope… when that happens we lose our fire, that fire is important! Is there any music you dont have? LOL
glaize
•14 years ago
You are right, sis. Dreams and hopes, although some might say they’re impossible, I believe are parts of our souls’ core. That fire sometimes gets put out and than the ugly shadow will have control over us, till the fire is rekindled…
Lmao I don’t know. Since the age gap between me and my siblings vary, also with my cousins so I have a very wide collection at hand 😛
SanityFound
•14 years ago
Am jealous I need to organise more music friendly friends!