Cordieb mentioned on one of her comments on her post “Spirituality Art Sunday – The Walk from Smoke into Darkness” that I took a walk into the unknown, that I seem fearless. The fact that she thought this blew me away, honestly. For me it is nothing like that but more a life of trial and error.
I have made more mistakes in this life than I can mention without boring you to a sleep lasting longer than Sleeping Beauty. I’ve made both good and bad decisions, most times though the bad ones turn out to be good ones as well because they all lead to the lessons I have to learn along the path of life.
My biggest life mission is to live without regrets, when I pass on I want to do it with a guilt free conscience, one without regrets. In order to do that it means that I have to look at the things that cause regret and accept them for what they are.
If it involves someone else I explain my reasons or what brought me to do or say what I did and ask their forgiveness.
If it is something I did to myself then turn towards myself and I look inside, take a long deep look at the possible reasons as to why I did what I did. Once I see the reasons I try to learn the lessons that lie there so that I don’t repeat it again.
If its a lost opportunity I do as I do for the above two, I look at what made me pass the opportunity by, why I didn’t grab it with both hands and hold it tight. I look at it from the outside in and see it for what it is, accept the reasons for doing so and then move on.
Life is a series of trials and errors, there is no point fighting it, we will all have regrets but whether we look at the reasons and accept them is up to us. Why should we sit for a lifetime and torment ourselves on something we did years ago for it only prohibits us from moving forward and living fully. It stops us from being all we can be to those in our life, it prevents us from grabbing those opportunities that knock and can disable our spirits from being who we truly are.
We all make mistakes, none of them are actually bad because they all lead us to where we are meant to go.
Did I walk fearlessly into the unknown?
Perhaps I did but perhaps it had more to do with trust, with understanding and knowing the hard lesson of waving an opportunity goodbye because I just was too busy with regret to see it at my door.
Perhaps when you stare death in the face long enough nothing is scary anymore, you live each day.
Perhaps at the end of the day we all sit with the choice to be the living living or the living dead.
Do you live with regrets for years and years?
Are you the living dead or the living living?
It’s never too late to start living, truly living … face your mistakes head on, face those regrets and take the lessons in your stride… they just mean you are human.