You can still be free

It’s funny how some songs find you, once long lost they make their way back to your ears, for what ever reason they replay within the walls of your mind as the mundane tasks progress and life ticks forward. This song’s lyrics are so powerful, more powerful perhaps for their undercurrent meaning.  We get lost even though we seem found, we can feel sadness within … Continue reading You can still be free

Desensitisation

Big word filled with different connotations The official definition is… de⋅sen⋅si⋅tize [dee-sen-si-tahyz] Pronunciation –verb (used with object), -tized, -tiz⋅ing. 1.  to lessen the sensitiveness of. 2.  to make indifferent, unaware, or the like, in feeling. The big question as to the truth behind that word is how does one become desensitized to the circumstances either of the world or in our immediate circumstances. According to … Continue reading Desensitisation

Self tanning for life

Yesterday while out walking I caught a glimpse of my newly tanned legs sporting shorts that I haven’t fitted in to for years and was so chuffed with myself! I can’t tell you how exciting it was the fact that the mere sight of my bare skin didn’t cause my eyes to get glare cramp. Yip, you know the one where you look at something … Continue reading Self tanning for life

Working winter to enjoy the Summer

I don’t know about you, but I suffer from the Winterassgrowth disease, yip you know the one where you get all cosy, eat more, less exercise and just be, that one.  Much like a squirrel storing its supplies for hibernation our bodies tend to hit this mode, anything we eat it keeps some back in “supplies” to keep our bodies warm. So if you are … Continue reading Working winter to enjoy the Summer

Keeping your head above water…

One day we wake up to find ourselves in the water without a lifeboat or buoy, nothing to help us float, we’re stuck with no way towards the land. We slowly start treading the water, at first its easy, our legs keep us going, our arms move slowly in the water.  We stay a float, our heads are in the fresh air and things seem … Continue reading Keeping your head above water…

Falling in Love with my Reflection

Do you remember as kids we were always staring into shiny surfaces, mirrors, water puddles and looking at our reflections and absorbing what we looked like.  I remember staring at each part of me in wonder, fascinated at the fact that this was who I was, this was me, Audrey. I didn’t think anything special about the image staring back at me other than the … Continue reading Falling in Love with my Reflection

A Symptom of Abuse ~ The Reflex of Life

stopabuseBefore you read on, please know that this post is both long and detail filled  with graphic imagery and the likes there of.  It is not intended to upset anyone nor is it for any purpose other than to explain reflexes, the dangers there of and how hard it is to unlearn them.

Its odd how one learns something so innately life changing, what brings it about so profound.  All mammals including humans have both instinctual and learned reflexes that we use in every day to day life.  These reflex’s protect us and sustain us, it is how we react to things and the people in our lives.

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Accepting the skew picture frame

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Ever walked into a room and there up on the wall sits a photo or painting that is skew.  Does it drive you nuts or do you not care?

Don’t know about you but it drives me insane.  Perhaps this is just the Virgo in me coming out but I feel forced to correct it with haste.  That said I can’t always reach it without finding a ladder first, sometimes they are just too high up for my tallness.

Now lets say you didn’t correct it, you are aware of it and you have a whole bunch of friends over.  The whole time everyone is laughing and having fun you are slightly unsettled.  Your mind keeps drifting back to that skew picture up on the wall keeping you from enjoying the moment fully.  You laugh but it isn’t fully. You smile but it isn’t fully.  There is something else on your mind.

If you had accepted that the painting is skew and had peace with the fact that, no matter what, it will remain like that would you be able to enjoy the party more fully?  Would you be able to be fully “in the moment”?

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Slaying the Monsters

Self worth and love are interesting creatures.  When they aren’t present things  can turn nasty beyond our comprehension, the two silent killers. Think Godzilla with a bit of King Kong mixed in with Anaconda and Winnie the Pooh (sorry Pooh Bear). Monster 1: Nada-del-self-worth I am not worthy of their love I don’t deserve to be happy I don’t deserve the success The success I … Continue reading Slaying the Monsters